Monday, October 12, 2009
Story of my life: Hell week begins anew.
I'm officially Human Resources now - and so it begins. Swamped at work between trying to keep it together and getting all the hiring work done that needs to be done, never mind anything else.
But there is else. Much else.
Mother wants me to go to Florida to use a half-a-ticket that I have left over that I didn't spend for Christmas. So she wanted me to take the last weekend in October - AKA Halloween. But I mean, there isn't no way I'm going to miss my Halloween, preferably, EVEN IF my brother has a concert on that Friday (for whatever reason) - not that I even care to see Mother or my brother, either anyhow.
Meanwhile, my Uncle is calling me (or rather, my dad - he doesn't have my number, apparently) cause he wants to clean out their entire garage, where I have stuff stored, in order to get the cars in for winter and all that. His brainy idea is clean out the ENTIRE garage. I am to either take or pitch anything that belongs to my branch of the family, namely stuff that is mine, Mother's, or my brother's. Naturally, Mother has instructed me not to touch her stuff at all >.> So, the plan is, for my part, to take what of my stuff that I can and thats it. Naturally, my work schedule is too prohibitive for this shit (not that I WANT to move stuff around either, given that there whouldn't be anyone to help me there either).
Naturally, my plate whould be pretty full with both family bullshit and work bullshit, but no. I also have RELATIONSHIP bullshit too (of course, when it rains it fucking pours aight). Long story is: Juanita and I broke up, which is all well and good but now the shit really hits the fan as I had both phone and computer with her, both of which she wants back. So I have to contend with her as well.
Bright spot, that really overshadows all this is a new burgeoning relationship (another Amber if you can believe - please don't analyze that xD) that is going very well and I am very happy about.
Monday, September 07, 2009
Well, Halloween is fast approaching (not fast enough!); the first of the Halloween stuff is coming in, and apparently will be on the shelves later on this week. Amusingly, something arrived called 'Box of Boogers' - on the case it was marked "fragile" xD If you haven't heard of Zhu Zhu Pets, you've clearly been living under a rock - they're basically the hottest thing ever, and no place on earth can even keep them in stock. The less-than-$10 individual hamsters are going for 150-ish on eBay and the like. Oh also, did I mention? They're a horrifically lame toy. Speaking of other stupidity, my cell phone crashed pretty horrifically the other day. Because it recieved 30 txts at once. Because it recieved 30 OLD txts at once. Yeah, something REALLY went wrong and it sent me monthes old txts and then proceeded to fail to respond. My shoes continue to get worse. I think I'm just going to buy new ones thissweek cause this is getting ridiculous. I mean, I'm literally walking sock-to-floor here. So I don't know. My dad was supposed to buy me new ones but you know how that goes - and I feel bad pressuring him about something like that anyway. He complains SO MUCH about not having any money. Of course, there's the debacle of house renovations in play, and as well he's paying for Mother to go to school. Well, thats not entirely accurate. He's paying for Mother's car insurance, which is the lesser of the two evils so that Mother can afford to go back to school, for cooking no less. Creditors looking for Mother called me at work today. Of course, there's a couple problems with that, the least of which being how they even got my number, at work. NO ONE has that number. So someone must have ratted me out, as it were. And they're going to be in a lot of trouble if I find out whom that person is. I can't have them calling me there, I can't afford to get in trouble at work - not now; they just offered me a full-time position. So I called Mother and told her - she claims that she's been paying them (the person on the phone claimed otherwise, of course) - to call them and then call me back. She never called me back. Instead, she calls my dad and cows him into paying it, cause she hasn't been and said car is now in danger of being repo'ed. So now he's steamed at me (cause I thought to tell her about it, apparently - thinking she'd handle it responsibly) - but like I care, I CANNOT have them calling me at work. Period.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
oh man its been TWO months. What the hell have I been doing?
My dad insists on using paper bags - they apparently have better "reusability" (but for what, I can't imagine)
Derek
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Monday, June 22, 2009
So if this was a race, and sometimes it feels like it, or a competition, I'd be, now, even further behind. You may recall, my asperation is to be a teacher - but I've kinda stalled that for now in favor of work-work. My step-brother, unable to find graphic arts work, has gotten a teaching job (sorry if you've been following the blog and this is rehash to you). So, of course, it became "why don't you do what your step-brother is doing? Look at him, he's teaching. He got this teaching job." Yeah, like I need that pressure.
Well, now, it gets worse. Him and his girlfriend are getting married. Perhaps not as overt as the "get a job" pressure, again, I'm going to be underneath on this one - he's beat me to success again, outpaced me. And so, I'm losing to him once again. Like I need the pressure >.> I have enough to worry about. I'm going to get a fucking ulcer. And don't get me wrong I AM scared of marriage - I'm scared that I'm not ready for it, I'm scared that I WON'T be ready for it. I mean, I am hopelessly buried in debt and directionless. And I don't know that I can or want to get out of that. I mean, the desire to get married someday and the desire to get my life together are not the same desire. I don't have a time limit or anything, I don't need one imposed on me, thanks.
My Aunt has had the drip for a while now, running nose and all that. Except, it won't go away. Turns out, it was like a flu at all. Nope, in fact, her skull had cracked and BRAIN FLUID was leaking out through her nose. And if THAT doesn't blow your, well, mind, its only a day surgery, up through her nose, to fix it. Hardly a major procedure at all. The wonders of medical science, I tell you o.O
Its been so unbelieveably fucking hot. I hate it. I am sweating to death.
I made employee of the month. Which I'm very proud of. Didn't think I'd get it. But I do my best there and I think I'm humble and lovable so its worked out. It gets me recognition, of course, but also a 10 dollar Dairy Queen gift card. So, awesome. Its also the first paycheck in the last two months that I'm not in the red. So maybe things are coming together again. I got a very good employee review (been there almost a year, already, hard to believe and - frankly - kinda scary) and a "large" raise. Also good.
My dad's grandmother's sister passed but in Florida so instead of a funeral, we went to the memorial service up here. Which was kinda nice. My dad's cousin was there, he's pretty cool - they grew up together (he's the son of the deceased). Anyway, there were some cool stories swapped and the like. It was held at this Babtist Church - the one that, way back in the days of forced visitation my dad took my brother and I to. Wow, talk about old wounds there. My dad is still angry about the stink we made about it - but honestly - I'm still angry about being taken. What gives him the right to drag us to church? He complained that he nearly lost his visitation rights after that - goddamn right he nearly lost his visitation rights! How in the hell is going to church family bonding? Give me a fucking break! So yeah. I have no idea what he's so angry about, as usual he's derranged. He thinks that my brother was the one who complained to, but in fact, I was the one who complained! I was insulted that he whould do such a thing, to think that it was within his right to do so.
Thursday, June 04, 2009
oh boy its been a bumper month already -.-
(the note to be mentioned here is that its not REALLY a cable box. We have DirecTV but I always call the damned things 'cable boxes' anyhow. Thats the paradigm of existence for these bits.) Last week, the cable box started making this really crazy whirring noise. It got quite loud. Anyway, I guess it was the fan inside the box. The only way to stop it was to unplug the thing (the machine never truely powers off - which, in the case of the cable box makes little sense. An aside: I mean, I want it on or off. If I don't want it off, I leave it on all the time (which I do) and that enables it to record and such. Why whould I want to "turn it off" and, in reality, its still on doing whatever it normally does just without transmitting picture to the TV? (It will record like normal on its own) I mean, videogames and such usually, or at least can, interrupt on a different channel or their own dedicated channel. So this makes no sense at all here.) So, I call up the company, talk to them about it and they confirm that, in fact, the box is dead - the fan is failing, causing the machine to freak out - it was overheating and resetting itself automatically as a failsafe. In fact, while I was on the phone with the guy, it got progressively louder until it rebooted on its own and never came back up. So they sent me a new one. Its fancy and all that rubbish but its got a (pulsing, even!) blue light on the front like the Wii -.- lights up the entire fucking room.
I made Employee of the Month thissmonth. Makes me pretty happy. I mean, its nice to have recognition. There were some nice things said in regards to that.
Also, apparently, when they went to put in my (school)loan(s) for deferment, that never happened. Loan company isn't sending me anything, isn't calling or really making any efforts to get a hold of me. Rather, they're calling my co-signer (surprise, surprise, I guess) and my family. (Of course, for their part, my Aunt didn't call to tell me anything either) So I have to call them tomarrow now. Who knows whats going on with this. Apparently, its defaulted and I owe the full amount now (on just one of the five or six loans?) >.> (which I've never really understood fully, I mean, if I'm in debt, I can't pay you. Why whould you charge me MORE when I already can't pay you? Further, why do they let me defer it and other such things - thats allowing me to not pay it as well. [I had another thought to place here but I've lost it]) And I'm getting it from all sides about that.
My Aunt as well, not telling me until today, has discovered that her skull is cracked and she is leaking brain fluid out through her nose. Never heard of such a thing, its pretty crazy. Even crazier is that the surgery, done up through your nose, is just an overnight thing. o.O Really? You going to go up the nose to patch the skull and thats only an overnight thing? Medical science, man.
Juanita has decreed that I'm going camping Fourth of July weekend - which is ok, I guess, not that I really want to go. Not too big on camping, and its going to be, you know, FOURTH of FUCKING JULY WEEKEND so EVERYONE is doing stuff, I'm sure, and the campgrounds'll be a zoo and a half. I really have to pick what is probably the busiest day of the year to go? -.- (Nevermind putting up with her family, which is a problem in its own right.) I don't know if work is going to allow me to have those days off anyway - I'm sure thats one of those big sale days. Like Green Friday. Or Christmas.
Mother is asking my dad for money again, apparently so she can go to culinary school o.o
The impetus, or rather impetii,for my novel has returned - or at least, several reasonably good ideas have. So I've been collecting randoms ideas and story fragments and characters and such nonsense. Though, otherwise, nothing is really moving and really looking like progressing. I mean, the nice thing about OneNote is I can store notes whether I use them, like, or even reject them or not. So its a bit more organized that writing it longhand on paper - but not necessarily more productive though >.>
I was so elated with being named Employee of the Month. It was nice, I was happy. But you know. All that other stuff now.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009 cause everyday another sharp sting sticks in your skin
Oh man am I loser, having not posted in so long. Though, if its any consolation, I've been posting to my Twitter - which is basically ideal for all the tiny worthless minutiae of myself and my day-to-day that I get obsessed with. That being said, I've never intended to abandon serious blogging. I just get "busy" Yeah fucking right.
My dog paddling is quickly becoming drowning, massively in debt (and getting it from all sides) - between two part-time jobs, I'm basically unemployed (and I'm looking seriously at adding a third) - I can't hardly even afford to go to work.
In between, I've been drinking a lot of Gatorade lately - my dad got it on super sale at Dominick's, of course, but I like it more than I used to (some of the watery flavors are ok) - while staring at OneNote trying to work out something resembling a novel. I think the Gatorade helps? (Or I'm delusional) I'm eternally writing a damn novel. Anyway, I can't tell if OneNote is helping me organize, or making me worse.
My cell phone has been acting funny. I mean, its a piece of technology so it will invariably fail but still. It like...will freeze while sending text messages and have to be rebooted. It seems to do it almost exclusively when its plugged in to charge which REALLY makes me wonder.
Saturday, April 04, 2009
So, I've rented Rygar: The Battle for Argus via Gamefly. Nominally, I LOVE the old Famicom (NES)/Arcade Rygar - I do own the NES version and do actually dig it out on occasion. It gets actually a good amount of play, right up there behind some of what I consider the "evergreen" NES carts. I really enjoy it - its a silly, but its light, hard, and has a decent amount of depth. Its an enjoyable platformer. Rygar on the Wii is actually quite a bit of fun though. Its got these odd "Resident Evil"-style camera angles but otherwise its a really straightforward beat'em up. Its interesting how much of the basic Rygar gameplay was retained though. The game makes me wonder if sliding around on your knees is actually a quicker way to get around. I love how repeated failure on my part actually unlocked Easy mode xD The music is fantastic, by the way.
Juanita's birthday was thisslastsweekend, which was kinda a wash cause I have no money. I'm upset with myself, really, cause I thought that I had saved enough money to take her out or have pizza or something but I didn't. Anyway, we got to be together and thats what counts but I'll still make it up to her when I get paid, if I can.
The Boss wants me to go some conventions with him, week after week, for the next several weeks in a row. I don't know. I mean, they're big conventions that ordinarily I'd want to go to, but I don't really want to go. It isn't going to be worth my time-in-pay anyhow, I'd wager :/
The Dragon Ball Evolution toys are in. I'm slightly underwelmed with them, really. Not the worst things I've ever seen, and I'm actually tempted to buy some (though, perhaps not until they go into the inevitable clearance), but its a little less than impressive, as mentioned. Based on the basically bare minimum merchandise going along with this, I think Fox has decided they have a lousy movie on their hands and are not interested in developing any money from it. Which actually doesn't make a whole lot of sense. I mean...isn't the point of making a movie to make money? So why, therefore, whould you make a lousy movie, decide it was lousy, and then give up all hope on making money off it, even from merchandising? I guess any further efforts there are time for, but its not looking too promising for it. Further, its been out in Japan for a little while already. You know, standard practice when a studio thinks a movie might not be worth it is to not release it to reviewers befor it premieres. So, why then, has it been released in Japan? Why garner negative reviews so far ahead of its real release here o.o I'm sure this one made sense to the marketing guys and not another soul else.
Saw what were apparently wild turkeys running around in the park off the road in the Yorkville area o.o
Ma has apparently developed a cyst on her brain now as well as some autoimmune disease that cause your body to not generate moisture properly - people die of it when they can no longer eat because their throats are literally too dry. People are getting worried for my mental condition with all this, but I'm not really upset or worried yet. Mother has pulled through some awful things befor so its too early to be all that concerned. Nothing could come of this and/or she could come out fine. I'll worry when its appropriate to do so.
New Star Trek toys should be coming out in the next week or two, I think. I'm unusually excited for this, I think.
Derek
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